Morning Coffee

In the morning a cup of coffee
and through out the day.
Richer the beans the richer the coffee.
But even the richest coffee
you can still taste the bitterness.
But with unconditional love there is
nothing like it.

Seasons

It's not too cold and not too hot
Leaves falling from tree to ground
Orange, Green, Yellow, Red all around
Trees naked, wind blowing
The smell of crisp leaves
School around the corner
Looks Like Fall To Me!

Life In The Long Run

Guns Don't Kill People,
People Kill People.
Life Is Too Short.
Kids Are The Future,
The Parents Have 18 Years To Prepare Their Children.
Babies Didn't Ask To Be Born!
Parents do so much in front of their kids.
What these kids see is what they are going to do.
When a kid is brought up by an abusive family,
they think it's right to do,
AND IT'S NOT!!!
There is 4 kinds of abuse:
Mental, Emotional, Verbal, and Physical.
Abuse is Abuse!
So Please STOP!!!

Carma

What comes around, goes around.
Karma is a b***h.
How you treat people is how you'll be treated.
Give respect get respect.
A wise, dear person told me:
"Image goes a short way. Character goes on forever."
If you do good things: GOOD things will happen in return.
If you only care about yourself, you'll only have yourself.
People LOVE The Things BAD For Them and HATE The Things GOOD For Them.
There are signs every were.
People just don't look.
If you only concentrate on one thing, your life will pass in a blink of an eye.
If you talk all day and never watch or listen how do you know what's happening?

Where am I?

Feel alone?
Feel your in the darkness?
Feel your left to survive for yourself?
Feel your going no were, so why try?
Feel no one understands you?
IT HURTS!!!
There's an empty hole.
Last breath, then you breath again.
LOST!
I NEED HELP!!!
Where am I?
How did I get here?
Why am I here?
How do I get out?
Feels like it's too late!
But I don't want it to be.
So now what do I do?
HELP ME GET OUT!!!
Help.
I scream,
But nothing comes out.
I run,
But I go no were.
I loss hope.
I've hit rock bottom.
But for some reason,
I DON'T GIVE UP!

Have You

Have you ever been kicked to the side?
Stepped and trampled on?
Told that your worthless?
Get kicked when your down?
Then that someone says "Sorry" and every thing should be okay?
Well it's not!
You can Forgive and forget,
BUT sometimes there's too much to forgive!
Yes, you can forgive, of course!
But it is too HARD to forget!
If you think forgiveness is hard,
Then forgetting is even harder!
Then how you look at that person,
Will always be different!

September

September was a hard month.

September, 10 I had my first cheer-leading competition.

I had cheer-leading practice the night before the competition.

When I got out I went to the back, like I always did, mom and dad parked back there.
The doors were locked, and Ryan crying.
Then I started knocking on the window, and mom opened the door, crying on the phone.
Then hangs up.
I asked what's wrong, and she said "He left", when I asked why, Mom said, "Because I didn't make enough money today."
Well it wasn't like I wasn't expecting that.
Then told me to get Zach, he was coming out from football practice.
We were all in the car, Zach, Ryan, Mom, me and the fake baby from home ac class.
When we left, and going down the road we saw Dad walking.
We stopped and pulled over.
He walked up to the car, mom locked the door, he told her to f*** off and flipped her off.
Then mom drove off, and went down a street he would have to pass, going home or any where.
After 30 minutes we get a call.
Dad, was at the gas station.
Now there's only one way for him to get there, going across the street, obviously he got a ride.
So we drive to the gas station, but first go to the store and get smoothies.
And there he is stand next to the pay phone.
When we got there I told my mom not to get out of the car.
But dose any one listen to me? No!
So she got out.
He runs after her.(Going toward her hand, because the keys are in her hand.)
Shaking her hand, and her hole body was shaking like she's being electrocuted.
Then bashed her head into the hood of the car.
Then starts to walk away.
Mom gets up and then dad comes back.
Then grabs her, mom gets one good slap in the face to my dad!(YEA)
Then dad puts his foot behind her, and trips her were she's on the ground and has is fist ready.
PAUSE
If he punches her in the air, then her head can go some were.
But on the ground her head has no were to go.
And when he's mad, he's a zombie.
He won't stop hitting her till all his anger is gone.
UN PAUSED
I got my slushy and shot it at him before he could hit her. (I'm outside of the car)
He pushes me against the car, and I hit my head.
But it was enough time for mom to get up, that's all I cared about.
There was a circle of people.
Mom started running around the car and yelling "Call The Cops!", and dad started chasing after her.
That's when I jumped on his back, and started punching him in the back. ( I guess he had a dislocated disk in his back. Before this happened.)
Then some one yelled "The cops are coming!"
Then we all hoped in the car.
Mom went real slow, knowing what's she's doing.
So when we went down are street, we pulled over.
Dad said it was a only a verbal match.
But mom was crying so the cops wanted to talk to her alone.
Mom said what happened, well I think.
Then the cops wanted dad to step out of the car.
I guess they said they looked up, and there was still like a restraining order or something.

The Next Day

I failed my baby thing.
And I was nervous, that would mess up the cheer.
Then Greg Hoyt (social service) came to my school and asked what happened that night, and I told him.

Out Of School

Mom picked me up.
She got me a coffee and a donut, I knew something was up.
Then she told me that she wants me to apologize to dad for shooting off at the mouth to him.
We got in a big fight!!!
I told her "I'm Not Saying Anything!"
I guess he was out, and home.
I DON'T CARE!!!
I wanted my friend to come with me to the peach festival, so I apologized.
He didn't say anything, so that made my part easier.
My friend came with us we got 2nd place, then afterwards I slept over her house.