What was once there,
Is no longer there,
It shall never,
Be the same,
Feelings once there,
Have gone away,
Either,
Just faded,
Or,
Forced apart,
What was once there,
Is no longer,
It shall never,
Be the same.

Endless,
Streams,
Of thoughts,
None of which,
Are bright,
Sweet and kind,
Nor caring,
Just,
Bitter dark,
Honest true,
Feelings,
Buried,
Deep down,
Kept to myself.

Have a broken,
Mind and heart,
That will never be perfect,
Forever damaged.

Slipping,
Falling,
Into a,
Dark never ending,
Gaping whole,
Gasping for air,
Screaming and scratching,
From the inside,
Meanwhile there is,
An emotionless,
Hard cover,
Slowly dying,
A little more,
Everyday.

Music,

Helps drown out,
Voices of others,
Blasting it so loud,
So I cant hear my own thoughts,
The only,
Time I have my mind at peace,
The only,
Type of quiet I can keep,
Without music,
All there is,
Are peoples voices and opinions,
Along with my dreaded thoughts,
Where as,
With music,
There is only music,
No overcrowding,
The only,
Time I have my mind at peace.

At the Gloom of the Night

Where,
Painful tearful,
Thoughts,
Happen the most,
Bringing nightmares to you,
As you lay wide awake,
Thoughts,
Of things you tried so hard to forget,
So hard to move on,
So hard to forget,
So hard to be strong,
And yet,
With every day,
During the daylight,
It gets easier,
Then comes along,
At the gloom of the night,
Nightmared nights of,
Painful tearful,
Thoughts.

When the world has,

Crashed down on you,
There's nothing left,
You can do to fight,
Just left out,
In the pouring rain,
Night of a thunder storm,
All alone,
The world is,
Crashing down on you,
There's nothing left,
You can do to fight.

Your life,

Don't hate it for the shit that happens,
Or the positions you have been put in,
If you hate your life,
Its because of the choices YOU have made,
You can change your life at any point.

Paths,

Make up,
Our decisions,
Our obstacles,
Our lives,
Who we are as a person.

That moment when,

Your stomach drops,
Heart races,
Mind fogs over,
Every thought disappears,
All worries,
Are either,
About to begin,
Or,
Have just been reassured.

We try so hard,

To not think about,
What's bothering us,
And yet,
Our brain,
Wonders,
Right back,
To what we tried,
So hard to not think about.

Memories,

Should be looked back upon,
And bring a smile to your face,
Although,
Memories,
Tend to be looked back upon,
And bring its depressing cloud along,
Memories,
Can last a life time,
Although,
The bad tends to replace the good,
So the memories,
Looked back upon,
Tend to be the ones,
That brings the dark depressing,
Cloud of thoughts.

Words,

Past memories,
Brought up,
Resurfaced,
Opening,
Once healed scars,
To freshly opened wounds.