Thursday, March, 24 was my 14th birthday.
I was able to see both of my parents. I got 3 different boxes of C.S.I. stuff. It's awesome! And, can't forget, the NAIL DRYER!!!!!!!!! I also got a whole bunch of CRAZY socks and a pair of Moccasins! I got a lot of nice things. My Nana made me eggs and BACON for breakfast!!!
Friday, March, 25 I had a sleep over. My friend Cat slept over. We solved 1 of 20 C.S.I. crimes. It only took us 3 hours!!! Not bad for our first time. We LOVE C.S.I., N.C.I.S., and Cold Case. We like to solve things. We make a great team! We want to go to school to do that sort of things. Cat got me a strawberry pop tart lip gloss, I LOVE THEM, and a Sisters Forever necklace. I have Sisters and Cat has Forever.
My birthday theme was Tinkerbell!!!!!!!!!! I had purple and green streamers which my Papa did the decorating! I blew up 40 balloons 20 purple and 20 green. My cake, banner, cup, and birthday pin was Tinkerbell. I had bows in my hair that was purple and green along with my nails. My outfit was purple!!! So purple and green were the theme colors too.
Next year I think I'll ask for everything, this year I asked for nothing and I got everything, so if I ask for everything I'll get what I really want, NOTHING!!! Let me explain so I don't come off like a spoiled brat, cause I am not that. I don't like gifts because I have nothing to give back. It makes me feel like I owe them something in return. When my parents would buy me things, they would like to hold things over my head or at least that is what it felt like to me! "I got you that... You can put it up...while I am here to see you for a visit!" I'm learning though to except gifts better. But with everything good it will just take time!
Nana and Papa got me every thing I wanted and needed...Love, Love, Love!!! I think of my trip as part of my birthday present!!! It's like they are sending me on a vacation. Except it is a vacation that I have earned, at least that is what my Nana says! I have to pack at the end of the month. I'll be gone for 3 days. I'll miss Nana :( She better not go CRAZY on me!
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Sunday, March 13, 2011
Above Myself
Above yourself,
Think for yourself,
Believe in yourself,
In control.
Try.
Never give up.
Half full or half empty?
Attitude makes who you are.
Half full or half empty?
Positive or negative charge?
No one can change you only show you a new point of view.
You decide the rest for your life.
You can hear but did you listen.
The most important lessons in life is our mistakes.
No one can prevent them but you.
You have to learn for yourself.
Make mistakes and forgive,
But you need to come to reality.
Friend's come and go.
Family doesn't.
Look around you and ask:
Is it worth it?
What do I think of myself?
How could I get out of it, if I even can?
Where do I see myself in 20 years?
Ask yourself these questions before you act
Then you should have no regrets.
Live to the fullest but the realist.
Do your best!
Don't let anyone discourage you.
If you believe it then who cares!
Where would any one be if we listened to what other people think?
Think for yourself,
Believe in yourself,
In control.
Try.
Never give up.
Half full or half empty?
Attitude makes who you are.
Half full or half empty?
Positive or negative charge?
No one can change you only show you a new point of view.
You decide the rest for your life.
You can hear but did you listen.
The most important lessons in life is our mistakes.
No one can prevent them but you.
You have to learn for yourself.
Make mistakes and forgive,
But you need to come to reality.
Friend's come and go.
Family doesn't.
Look around you and ask:
Is it worth it?
What do I think of myself?
How could I get out of it, if I even can?
Where do I see myself in 20 years?
Ask yourself these questions before you act
Then you should have no regrets.
Live to the fullest but the realist.
Do your best!
Don't let anyone discourage you.
If you believe it then who cares!
Where would any one be if we listened to what other people think?
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Update_Me
I have gotten into the N.J.H.S., the National Junior Honor Society. I have to keep my over all average above an 87. I went to the ceremony on Wednesday the 9th of March. Nana almost started crying. Aunt Jill, Mom, and Nana went. Papa stayed home and watched Zachary and Ryan. As of now all my grades are in the 90's. English and Spanish is 100%. Nana and Papa got me a HP Garden Dreams computer and phone for all my good grades and hard work. I LOVE IT SOOOOOOO MUCH! It's so fast. Many people said the touch pad is hard but I don't think so at all. Nana said she likes the windows 7. I also got this small, little, purple mouse and I named it pouse.
Update_Mom
All day every day of the week.
Mom is Mom. I have the most trouble forgiving her. I think it's because when my Dad went to jail instead of getting better she got worse. When you have an "abuser" and you have a chance to get away you run as far as you can and don't look back. She had every opportunity in a life time and turned it all down for her best friend-Mr. Vodca, Mr. Goldenslogger, and Mr. Pill-popper. Mom could have gotten a free apartment and all the bills paid for her, plus food stamps and cash. But blew it all for her 3 friends. On top of it all she told everyone that we were in a safe house and wanted them to give her money for the apartment which she got free and a car because the other one was in Dad's name. But really we were living with her boyfriend.
We have been living with Nana and Papa for a year and 4 months now, Mom thinks we have only been here a few months.
I have had visits with my mom, they have been very STRESSFUL. I don't want to see her or talk to her. Then I have to sit there for 2 hours and the only thing she says is "Hi Des", "Bye Des", "I love you", "Nails are nice", and or "Can I touch your hair?". Other then that I'm visiting Dave the cop her new boyfriend. We know how that goes. That poor guy is wrapped around her little finger. She's going to use the crap out of him, take every thing he has, just like all the other ones. You can fell the separation and tension. She used to be all over him, now not do lovey dovey. Most likely it's the want-to-be wife and when he doesn't ask the question, she'll destroy him.
My parents have made mistakes. I forgive them up to when my Dad got arrested. but I have not forgiven my mom for not taking that opportunity to turn around our life's. she thinks we (Zach and I) feel like she's abandon us, we don't. I'm mad she never had to pay for all the stuff she did. When you look at it, they both did wrong. I'm not taking sides or patting anyone on the back. She acts like it was only hard for her and not for us, she was going threw the hard time. We hurt more then she did. She was stupid. She put him in jail so many times for NOTHING! She told us (Zach, Me, and family) like idiots we believed her instead of looking at both sides. She ruined his life and so many other guys as well as being a home wrecker.
Look at her now living it up like nothing ever happened! That makes me the maddest!!!! She wants to be forgiven right away and have a relationship right away. But any time we talk about the past she denies it all, maybe she doesn't remember but she doesn't have to deny it. I'm not making it up if Zach remembers and agrees with me too.
My Dad wants me to forgive him over time and build a relationship over time. We wrote letters back and forth from jail. He's changed it could be good or bad, lets hope good. I'll see him soon!!! I'm excited and counting down the days.
Mom is Mom. I have the most trouble forgiving her. I think it's because when my Dad went to jail instead of getting better she got worse. When you have an "abuser" and you have a chance to get away you run as far as you can and don't look back. She had every opportunity in a life time and turned it all down for her best friend-Mr. Vodca, Mr. Goldenslogger, and Mr. Pill-popper. Mom could have gotten a free apartment and all the bills paid for her, plus food stamps and cash. But blew it all for her 3 friends. On top of it all she told everyone that we were in a safe house and wanted them to give her money for the apartment which she got free and a car because the other one was in Dad's name. But really we were living with her boyfriend.
We have been living with Nana and Papa for a year and 4 months now, Mom thinks we have only been here a few months.
I have had visits with my mom, they have been very STRESSFUL. I don't want to see her or talk to her. Then I have to sit there for 2 hours and the only thing she says is "Hi Des", "Bye Des", "I love you", "Nails are nice", and or "Can I touch your hair?". Other then that I'm visiting Dave the cop her new boyfriend. We know how that goes. That poor guy is wrapped around her little finger. She's going to use the crap out of him, take every thing he has, just like all the other ones. You can fell the separation and tension. She used to be all over him, now not do lovey dovey. Most likely it's the want-to-be wife and when he doesn't ask the question, she'll destroy him.
My parents have made mistakes. I forgive them up to when my Dad got arrested. but I have not forgiven my mom for not taking that opportunity to turn around our life's. she thinks we (Zach and I) feel like she's abandon us, we don't. I'm mad she never had to pay for all the stuff she did. When you look at it, they both did wrong. I'm not taking sides or patting anyone on the back. She acts like it was only hard for her and not for us, she was going threw the hard time. We hurt more then she did. She was stupid. She put him in jail so many times for NOTHING! She told us (Zach, Me, and family) like idiots we believed her instead of looking at both sides. She ruined his life and so many other guys as well as being a home wrecker.
Look at her now living it up like nothing ever happened! That makes me the maddest!!!! She wants to be forgiven right away and have a relationship right away. But any time we talk about the past she denies it all, maybe she doesn't remember but she doesn't have to deny it. I'm not making it up if Zach remembers and agrees with me too.
My Dad wants me to forgive him over time and build a relationship over time. We wrote letters back and forth from jail. He's changed it could be good or bad, lets hope good. I'll see him soon!!! I'm excited and counting down the days.
Update_Dad
January 21st
Dad has gotten out. We (Zachary and I) wrote him while he was in jail. We got a some what bond. The most thing I liked was he wanted to be forgiven over time, not right then and now. I forgave both of my parents for everything that happened after Dad went to jail. We have been having visits they're good, the only thing I wish is that he would watch Ryan more often.
Dad has gotten out. We (Zachary and I) wrote him while he was in jail. We got a some what bond. The most thing I liked was he wanted to be forgiven over time, not right then and now. I forgave both of my parents for everything that happened after Dad went to jail. We have been having visits they're good, the only thing I wish is that he would watch Ryan more often.
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